Yesterday was a rough eating day. For some reason, I just did not want a healthy meal. Now, I know that this is a lifestyle change, and it’s going to require eating normally for, you know, ever. But part of eating normally is digging into a burger and fries or a really unhealthy pizza and, yes, eating more than is a healthy amount for one person.
I’ve built myself into a mini-complex lately, mostly because I have these numbers that I want to hit in a certain amount of time. I really, really want to be under 300 by my birthday on December 10th. That’s 45 days to lose 12 pounds. That should be attainable; I haven’t lost less than 15.4 pounds in any 45-day period since May 20th (yes, I have a spreadsheet; yes, it’s very detailed; yes, I’m a nerd). But in the last twelve days, I’ve lost zero weight. In fact, I’ve actually gained 0.2 pounds.
This is not a big deal. But then, neither is getting below 300 by my birthday. But in a way, it is. At least, the latter is. I’ve spent every single day of my 20s at over 300 pounds. First, I don’t want that to be the case when my 20s end. Second, I want to spend every day of my 30s at less than 300 pounds. I know it’s completely arbitrary, and that if I don’t get there by December 10th, I’ll probably get there by December 20th. But as someone that doesn’t often put stock in arbitrary dates and numbers, this is surprisingly important.
That being said, at some point in the future, I’m taking myself a big fat cheat day. It’s going to be marvelous. I’ve set that date for when I get under 290 pounds. I’m not going to take the chance that I’ll bounce back up over 300, especially if I do get there before my birthday. There’s no chance I could eat the food necessary to gain that much in real weight, but with salt and natural fluctuations in body weight, I want to give myself a wide berth (get it? WIDE BERTH!) between myself and 300.
Other than that, things are going pretty well. I’ve rededicated myself to exercise and my strength training is in full gear. I do have another mini-complex around exercise, though. When I’m in a place where I’m working out 5-6 times a week, I get a guilt complex when I skip a workout. I didn’t work out yesterday. I probably should have, but I’m having guests over on Saturday so I was cleaning, and I got sidetracked going through my wardrobe and throwing all my too-big clothes into the Goodwill pile, which leads me to believe that I was also giving myself a bit of an ego boost. So there were things that needed to be done and things that I just wanted to do and I ended up not working out. I have plans tonight, though, and it’s highly unlikely that I’ll get a workout in. Since I knew this already, I felt a nasty twinge of guilt about missing a workout when I didn’t really “need” to. The good news is I’m going to be exercising into the foreseeable future.
Finally, I constantly feel like I’m running out of things to blog about. My updates have become fairly few and far between. So I thought I’d see if my readers have anything they’d like me to write about or questions that they’d like to ask. No topic’s off-limits and I’ll answer anyone’s question. Text, Twitter, Facebook, comment on here, any way you’d like to ask. I want more reasons to come on here and talk about what’s going on. Just don’t describe weight loss as a “journey”!
I agree that at some point you do feel guilty about not working out. I would like to hear more about your cardio and how you plan to increase it, but not go overboard. I have been working out 5-6 days a week for over a decade straight now and I feel guilty whenever I do less than 5 days a week, which is only about 3 or 4 weeks a year. I also feel guilty when I skip two days in a row. For awhile I did too much and almost burnt myself out, but now I feel like I am controlling my intensity better. My goal is to never run a marathon, while important for some I feel it is bad for your knees and joints. I have run around 10 miles several times and hiked around 20, but I have always liked to take things to extremes, but I feel it is important to manage your workouts. What do you think?
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